Back at the end of August I started this post and never posted it.
“Today I complained about my kids. If you know me in real life you’d know that I don’t really ever do that. I try not to. Yes, they drive me crazy. Yes, they make me daydream about running away. But most of the time, I really just enjoy having them around.
Today I complained about my kids to a total stranger.
A woman on the phone.
At my doctor’s office.
I’m sure she thinks I’m crazy and that’s okay with me. I kind of am. Isn’t every parent with little kids a little bit crazy?
Today I complained about my kids. We’re so out of our routine and as a family we thrive on structure and predictability. We’re all ready for the school year to begin so we can get back to our normal.
Next week I’m going to miss my kids when they go back to school.”
I never posted that because the timing just wasn’t right. And maybe I didn’t want you all to know how my kids drive me crazy too. But they do. I know all the right things to do but that doesn’t mean I always remember to do them in the moment.
Right now I am in Atlanta for a blogging/ business conference. The beginning of the school year was rocky for us. Now I am alone and getting some much needed time to recharge.
And guess, what?
I miss my kids.
Yes, I miss those sticky hands and sloppy kisses.
I miss the screaming and fighting.
I miss the bathroom towels on the floor and the toilet that is never flushed.
I miss hearing the complaints about wanting pancakes for breakfast and octopus for dinner.
I miss the tight hugs and the request for snuggles.
I miss the story time and the tucking into bed.
What is it about getting away that makes motherhood a double edged sword?
I know I need the break to grow as a writer and a small business owner. I know I need the break so I can focus and recharge. I know I will come home a better mom because distance gives me perspective.
Still, I feel like I’m missing out on something.
Can you relate? Do you miss your kids when you’re away or are you able to fully enjoy being away?
xoxo
–k
Kristina Grum is a Certified Parent Educator who has over a decade of experience working with children, including being a classroom teacher. She currently teaches parenting classes in her local area and writes about shifting parenthood from barely surviving to thriving.
