Recently there was a mom from CA in the news.
I read it.
I heard about the mother who killed her 3 daughters who were 3 & under. I felt like I was punched in the gut when I read it.
The similarities between us were not lost on me. I have no doubt that she suffers from some type of perinatal mood disorder, like postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety, postpartum OCD, post traumatic stress disorder, or even postpartum psychosis. And truthfully, if I hadn’t gotten help, this woman could have been me.
My baby was not growing.
She needed to be induced.
I was in labor for 30+ hours before I was rushed in for a c-section.
Nursing was terrible.
It took 5 days for my milk to come in.
She had jaundice and went to the hospital every day for a heel prick.
We had to supplement with formula.
She wouldn’t latch.
She didn’t sleep.
She cried all day.
She had reflux.
She was failure to thrive.
I suffered for another 4 months until I went back to the OB. I had an appointment because I was pregnant again. This appointment was with the actual gynecologist and I burst into tears the minute she walked in the room.
Without a doubt she diagnosed me with a slew of postpartum mood disorders. With her help we worked on a treatment plan which included education, therapy and medication.
Please consider making a donation to Climb Out of the Darkness. Climb Out of the Darkness is the annual awareness raising and fundraising event for Postpartum Progress, a nonprofit focused on supporting pregnant and new moms with perinatal mood and anxiety disorders like postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety, postpartum OCD, postpartum psychosis and pregnancy depression. Also, Climb Out of the Darkness kicks ass. Just so you know.
Katherine Stone and Postpartum Progress are the number 1 reason why I am emotionally healthy today and why I was able to get the proper help.